Fall Back

Life is strange. All I can do is do what I can and not worry about the rest.

Bryce and Erik at The Gorge

Bryce and Erik at The Gorge

Over Labor Day weekend I headed up to the Gorge Amphitheater in George, Washington to attend the Dave Matthews Band three day concert. My brothers friend Bryce went with me. There were a lot of people camped out in this big grass cow field. Probably like 14,000 people. All camped next to their shiny new cars. But I guess the thing about fake-hippies is they have money to burn……. “We are here to rock the lot scene!” said Dr. D and his minion, selling burritos across from our camp spot. But rock the lot is what Bryce and I did. And with a vengeance. A vengeance to all those people who laugh. All those people who don’t get it. To all those people who would rather sit at home and watch television then live a real life. The first tie dye shirt I sold was to a sheriff riding on a horse through the camp ground. But selling from one spot is no way to rock the lot. So I gathered my bracelets and tie dye on my Bolivian and Mexican bags and set my feet to walkin. I kicked ass. Rockin it to the crowds. I sold lots and lots of bracelets. In only and hour on Friday I sold more than a good day at a farmers market. I was way happy. Saturday and Sunday Bryce wanted in on the fun so he hit the streets of the campground as well. We both had fun walking through the crowds of drunks trying to believe in a better way and taking their green dollars from them. I only wish it had been silver and gold. I guess the lesson is that in the end everyone creates their own reality and can do whatever they want. No one is stopping us from doing anything we want to do and life can be anything or anyway at all.

On the flip side……

Amanda visited me in Portland in September so we could celebrate our one year anniversary together. There are strange things in the air. We figured out that the day I proposed to Amanda was exactly a year after the day she first emailed me from Mexico where she was studying with my sister. Our first year together has gone by so quickly. She is gone back to Buffalo now and I miss her. But the love particles will keep on floating through the air.

Christmas Wreaths are here. I am trying to do everything my mom and I used to do together. I know I can do it. I just have been getting too stressed out and I don’t know how to fix it………

“Ever thus to deadbeats, Lebowski.”